Awhile back, I posted about Surviving a Homeschool Crisis. It is easy to give step-by-step survival guide instructions, and quite another to be the one on the surviving end. I hit a pretty big homeschool slump that lasted about two years. You know you've hit a slump when your February Burn-out turns into May burn-out, and then summer burn-out, and then Sept dread....and it never really lifts. I began Sept thinking we'd just "do the next thing", even if I didn't feel like it. We'd just push through. It lasted about 3 weeks, and then I realized I was in over my head. So I started dropping subjects. Maybe if we kept it to 2-3 subjects per day, we'd be alright. We can add in subjects later, after my head is above water. By December, I was toast. "Do the next thing" was beyond me, even with 2-3 subjects per school day. I signed the kids up for Time 4 Learning, to separate myself from the whole thing. It was a welcome relief, even if all the same problems would still be there when I got back from my mental vacation.
For two years, I'd questioned "What are we doing?" and "Why are we doing this?" I was tempted to send my children to school; at least they have a vision for education (even if I disagree with it). Nothing seemed important anymore. Why force my children to do school? I didn't see any real learning occuring from our workbooks. Home Education seemed futile. I had no homeschool vision.
I started reaching for different homeschool books, different philosophies. I sent myself through my own in-home "homeschool convention". I sometimes picked books that I knew I would disagree with. I also distanced myself from Curriculum. I looked purely at ideas: why were these ideas important and how might these ideas be used? I made lists - what was important to me (this was really hard to drudge up, at first), what was important to my kids' future? Sometimes I'd turn the page and start a new list. I jotted down ideas from books, and began discussing some ideas with people and getting feedback.
I left out all the praying I did, lol. I did a lot of praying. It began with praying, two years ago. It was just such a dry season in my life (schoolwise). My own homeschool convention began around January. I prayed, I read a book, I jotted down ideas, I prayed some more, I read some more. Repeat. Not a whole lot happened during this schoolyear, however, I experienced a lot of growth. I am thankful that my God hears my prayers, that He cares about me, and carries me through. I am filled with awe that my Father in heaven knows what I need before I need it. He will direct my paths. Sometimes, I don't see the path clearly. But what a joy when I suddenly can see clearly! My eyes have been opened this year. I have a new vision for homeschooling, and where we are headed (and most importantly, why!) I am creating a new blog to share these ideas about education. I'm keeping this blog to detail our personal lives and learning. I will share the new blog link when I get it better organized.